It is 10 minutes to 12 o'clock midnight and I can't sleep. I have a lot of thoughts running through my head, and I felt that in order to get any sort of rest, I need to get them out.
The thoughts running through my head are about the past 18 months. A year and a half ago to this day (the 12th) Cami and I were sealed for time and all eternity in the Boise, ID temple of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I still have fond memories and feelings about that occasion, as well as the time that we have spent together since. As I attempted to end my day in slumber I couldn't help but lay there and remember many of the experiences that we have shared as a couple-- especially since we had spent the evening recollecting stories of days past. Upon pondering these experiences, and the feelings associated with them, I feel a need to write some thoughts, primarily for Cami's sake. (Since there are a few of you who actually read my posts from time to time, I appologize for this post in advance if it may seem a bit personal and not quite as exciting as posts past.)
A little over two years ago I went to the temple prior to beginning a new semester at BYU. I had experienced a significant relationship upheaval not too long before this, and I was a little worried about my psycho-spiritual state as I prepared to finally get serious about my education and get going on my degree. As I sat in the temple pondering the past and future events in my life, I pled with my Father in Heaven for guidance and peace. To my plea I recieved a very strong impression, almost as a voice speaking to my ears, that I would meet the woman I would marry at school this semester. This was not exactly the answer I expected, nor did I feel more guided or at peace because of it. Nonetheless, I briefly pondered the prompting and then let it slip into memory as I filled my mind with preparations for school.
A week after that experience in the temple, I sat in my Theoretical Foundations class on the first day of classes. The desks were arranged in a circle, and sitting directly across from me was a beautiful woman who radiated with happiness and energy. I think it was her infectious smile that caught my attention. She was positively stunning as she sat there chatting with students next to her... all the while I just sat there trying not to be obvious in my gaping attraction to her. As I attempted to direct my attention to anything other than her, I recieved an impression of equal intensity and spirit as I did just a week prior in the temple: "That is the woman you will marry!" I felt a wash of peace as I considered the prompting I had just recieved, but that feeling was quickly pushed out by my own thoughts: "But I don't even know her name! I bet she's married already... the pretty ones always are." Thanks to the great blessings of the Lord, I quickly forgot that I had recieved that impression until just a month before Cami and I were married because I think I would have managed to become a total basket-case and/or completely ruin things with Cami if that bit of revelation hung over my head throughout our courtship.
As things go in these sorts of cases, I finally did learn her name and, to my great delight, discovered that she was indeed single. We became friends through our association in class, better friends as we talked together outside of class, and even better friends once we started dating. The rest is history... obviously the dating thing turned out to be a success since after only three months of association (with only half that time spent formally dating) we determined that we didn't like the thought of not being around each other all the time and thus got engaged.
As mentioned prior, we were sealed on May 12th, 2007 in Boise. Since that time my love and admiration of Cami has exponetially increased. Not only is she my wife, but she is my best friend, my most trusted confidant, and my favorite person to be around. I miss her when we are seperated for even the extent of a workday. My heart is knit as one with hers. I feel her pains as my own, I experience her joys as my own, and I find that she feels the same for me. I know that in marriage we should be equals, but I feel that she is so much my superior. I relate to the words of the song that say "You could do better than me, but I can't do better than you."
A little over two years ago the Lord answered my plea for guidance and peace with the revelation of my pending marriage to Cami. He could not have answered that plea any more appropriately! Aside from the Holy Ghost I have no greater guide in this life than I do in Cami. She has been constant and disciplined in our walk together. And outside of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, I have no greater source of peace than I have when I am with Cami. She fills my soul with happiness and light. I will be forever grateful to my loving Father in Heaven who brought Cami and I together that we might be husband and wife. I will also always be grateful for the principles of the Gospel which enable the two of us to build a marriage that is founded on charity, faith, hope, and love. We aren't perfect now, but if we continue to strive together towards Christ, I know that one day we will be.
So, here's to 18 months of marriage, Cami. I look forward to an eternity yet to come as your husband and friend.
With all my love,
Ty
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
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I didn't even know that you were writing this. I must have been asleep :) You make me sound better than I really am. Thanks! I love you.
Cami
Nice post. You stole my idea! I don't know how, but you did. J/K
Jenn has been so ushy-gushy on our blog lately that I've been meaning to respond in kind.
I know what it's like to be so overwhelmed with thoughts and feelings like that. My problem comes when I have to put them into words. Either no words come to mind to describe them, or a million words come, but none of them good enough.
That's how I feel! Ty has to be content with I love you!
Cami
I have started many of these blogs about Christian...but I decided to wait. NOW it's going to look like I just did it because of you. Thanks TY! :) J/K We are happy that you married Cami. It seems like you fit in so well with our family...it's like it was meant to be!
I have always hoped and prayed that my children would have the blessing and the joy of marrying their best friend. That’s what I did and that has been a constant and great blessing in my life. It is only because Steve is my best friend that he has managed to stay by my side though 6 pregnancies (in the case of Jenn, one that lasted a year), a lot of weight gain, a lot of diets, hormones, hot flashes, nearly dying at least twice, 3 major surgeries, a host of other weirdness and that hasn’t even touched my poor blonde brain and all that entails. He may have rolled his eyes a few times, but he has never made me feel like he was thinking he had made a bad choice in marrying me or that he would even like a break. I honestly wish I could say that I have treated him with the same love and respect he has given me, but I would be lying. Yet here we are, and I’m so glad we are; and because of Steve’s patience, honoring the Priesthood he holds and the covenant we made in the temple, I still have time with him to learn and grow and be worthy of that. This coming December 3rd, with be the 31st anniversary of our first date. Pretty cool!
Reading this and the comments gives me the continued faith that by holding fast to the gospel and to each other, you can make it though anything. That trumps the world, finances, school, family and friends and all the rest! I love you. Ty, thank you for sharing these thoughts to your sweetheart with us. I know it was personal, but it also helps us to remember those sweet things in our lives too. OXOXOX
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